SPEAK OUT
I was so overwhelmed on Saturday. I really wanted to be on time for the speak out but my daughter ride didnt come on time. I had made plans to ask permission to read my poem but I froze up as soon as I pulled in the parking lot. I have to realize that I can no longer be hurt by my perpetrators. It was very nice and the things that others said really helped me. I felt safe while I was there. I felt that I was with my family. I am just really shy and afraid to speak in front of others. I am very good at writing down my thoughts but not speaking in front of others. I felt bad that I did not reach out to the others that were there. I picked up some literature to pass out to some of my friends about sexual abuse. I was angry with me for not speaking put but I cannot be so hard on myself. I am very glad that I went though. Next time I am going to have push harder to get my words out and let my voice be heard. After I left I just cried and cried. Even though I didn't speak I felt some healing had started taking place just by me being in the atmosphere. Thanks to all of my support.
4 Comments:
At 12:09 PM,
Nika said…
I am so glad you were able to get yourself there!! It was such a powerful day, I know it was very very overwhelming though. I got in my car and I wanted to cry but no tears would come.
It's too bad we didn't get to meet, or maybe we did and we didn't know who each other were! I spoke right after the right survivor speaker in the morning, Lisa. She read a letter she wrote to her father and talked about her website, then I talked a little but about how I had been raped recently and then I read pieces about being raped when I was 15. I wasn't the dancer, but she was awesome!
I'm putting a link to your blog on mine.
At 1:18 PM,
LaToya said…
ok thanks..I just asked lisha how to make a link..I missed you becawuse I didnt come until the afternoon. I am sorry that we didnt meet but I am glad that you invited me to the event. I am always here for support through the blog.
At 6:40 AM,
Lish said…
Just got your message. I learned how to add links by doing a search. This link should explain how to do it! I'm not very good at explaining how.
http://help.blogger.com/bin/answer.py?answer=41427&query=adding%20links&topic=0&type=f
Congrats on coming to the speakout! There are many forms of speaking out...so your presence is a form in my eyes!
At 8:01 AM,
LaToya said…
Franki,
No we have not met officially. I did post a comment on your site a couple of weeks ago. I will let you know about coffee and talking.
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